I know it's not quite the end of April, but for me, this is the perfect time to take a moment and reflect.
In 217 words I will have completed my Camp Nano Goal. I will have achieved the goal I set myself last month. To be honest, having won two NaNoWriMo contests I thought I was undermining myself when I set a word goal of five thousand. As opposed to the 50 000 I will face in November. Looking back, with 4 days and 271 words to go, I have never been more thankful that I gave myself such a small challenge.
Working and studying full time is honestly exhausting. Forget finding time to sleep and socialise. Watch as your to-do list piles ever higher and your time vanishes when you aren't looking. My friends are constantly telling me 'when you have time' my new favourite response is 'What Time?! I Never Have time!' It's generally a stressful yell as well.
However, this month. I feel proud of myself. I have accomplished a goal. (well, I will have by the end of tomorrow). I took time off and went away for four days. It was what I needed, writing had become such a struggle. I stared at a blank page, argued with script writing software that just wouldn't work. Those four days revitalized my imagination and left me with six more half finished ideas.
This month I completed my second seven-day writer's challenge. Finishing and posting a prompt a day for seven days. And completely panicking when people actually liked what I wrote. It's such an awesome feeling.
So perhaps I haven't finished one task in one paper... but that's all. Everything else I set out to do I have done. I made a new friend, I started getting along with the people at work. I've been informed that I cannot ignore the existence of my approaching 21st birthday.
I am learning how to balance work, school, and my mental health. I know I am still going to struggle. I know I am still going to have to pull near all-nighters. I know my sleep is going to suffer and I am going to use every single spare second I have trying to pull assignments out of nowhere.
Honestly, I am loving every sleepless second of it, and as one of my characters is often caught saying: 'I don't have time, I make time for what's important, and you are very important to me.' This is important to me, and I will continue to make time to chase my dreams.
So while I try to finish the second half of my song fic post and find the time to write those last 271 words. I beg of you, remember to make time for what makes you feel young, make time for what's important to you. Life is too short not to.
Until Next Time;
Rose Demica.
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